But We're Both Girls... by Snow McNally

Author:Snow McNally [Snow McNally]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Amazon: B015V9RZB6
Goodreads: 26825479
Published: 2015-09-26T03:00:00+00:00

Jo

I have never felt stupider than I did in that moment. I could only imagine what Anne thought of me after what had happened. Certainly nothing good.

I fell for Anne pretty much the first day I met her. Something about her was just so inescapably beautiful, and I couldn’t keep my eyes off her. She was so graceful and elegant, and everything about her just seemed soft and gentle.

The problem with falling for women is that statistically speaking, they’re probably not likely to, or even capable of, feeling the same way about you. I’d learned that lesson the hard way one too many times, so when I realised how I felt about her, I decided to play it safe.

It was a good thing I did, too. She introduced me to her boyfriend that night, after inviting me out to drinks to welcome me to the workplace. He was the most incredibly dull person I’d ever met, but at least I knew that Anne was at best unavailable and at worst, straight.

Even still, we became fast friends. We worked together, went shopping together, drank together, and despite my best efforts, I could never quite shake the way I felt about her. If anything, I only fell harder for her the better I got to know her.

I tried to keep dating, but nobody ever managed to dislodge her from my heart. Or maybe I just wouldn’t let them. Either way, they always ended before they got too serious, and I went back to daydreaming about Anne dumping her boyfriend and running off with me, never actually believing it would really happen.

Then, two days ago, she told me she actually had broken up with her boyfriend. I didn’t know what to say. Obviously, I knew it didn’t mean anything, but that wasn't enough to stop me hoping.

On a whim, without so much as thinking it through, I lied to her, and told her I was single. Then I made plans with her on the one undeniably romantic day of the year, because what’s the point of digging your own grave it it’s not too deep to crawl out of?

That night, I’d gone to see Sue, the girlfriend I’d lied about not having, and told her I couldn’t see her on Valentine’s Day. I didn’t want to tell her why, but when she asked, I couldn’t lie. Having said that much, I told her I had to end the relationship, because it wasn’t fair to her. She was angry, understandably so, but we talked about it for a long time, and I thought that everything was okay.

Apparently, I’d thought wrong, because the very next day she’d ambushed Anne outside of our office and told her everything. Or at least, enough to make Anne want to confront me about it.

Not telling her I was gay, that was one thing. She was a kind person, and she’d have understood me wanting to keep things like that private. Not telling her that I was gay, and also attracted to her, though? There was no way that looked like anything other than deceptive.

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